Precipice

Had our final Sun Unit meeting this morning, and now it's finally starting to sink in that I graduate from the National Civilian Community Corps tomorrow. Even throughout this past week, as I have completed out-processing paperwork, did Sun Four's final team-based activities, and presented the last debrief to the Denver staff, I was never able to really come to grips with the fact that my term of service with Americorps ends tomorrow.

Our Unit Leader, the esteemed Vaughn, gave a little speech this morning about how many Corps Members have no concrete plans for the future. He mentioned that we did not want to be looking back on our lives after turning 40 and wondering where the time went...and THAT hit really close to home. That exact thing has been a huge fear of mine for years, and having somebody like Vaughn spell it out in essentially the same words I use is...disconcerting, to say the least.

Graduation tomorrow. Graduation tomorrow. I keep thinking it to myself, but it STILL doesn't seem real. Ten months of travel, of hard work, of endless bullshit, of new experiences and incredible people, of difficult living conditions, of getting things done...and it comes to a close tomorrow. Don't ask me how I feel, because I honestly don't know myself. I will do my best to make sense of it all and get back to you tomorrow.